Because things went downhill in the past 3 days.
Thoughts about buying a house are completely illogical now. The crisis finally reached us and my parents and me had our hours cut. So the safest thing to do now is just keep renting the little house we have. But I'm not that worried about that. I'm more worried if we'll need to re-immigrate [get back to Lithuania] I mean I love the country and all, but my education would be screwed up, maybe even permanently, and I already had these future plans that seem a little insecure at the moment. I might be just a little freaked out and upset, but nonetheless, new opportunities are arising and I don't like them. If I have to pay tuition from second year of college, I'm screwed. I'd have to take a loan out, just on what insurance? My family doesn't have property in Ireland! Maybe they'll provide student loans, with little to no security? (hey, a girl can dream, right?)
I'm hopping to get trained on tills and ditch the place once I turn 18 and start college. I hope to get a better job then.
So pardon everyone if I can't bear replying to comments and stuff, I'm thankful and read it all, but dA depresses me.
There is just so much good and popular art that frankly, I feel like I'm standing still. I can't do anything decent and original. It's either original and er.. different, not in a very good way or crap and unoriginal. I feel lost and want someone to point me in the right direction because the way my art (and the rest of me is) doesn't really fit anywhere (apart from a family photo album) at the moment.
Sorry if I'm being too downbeat but I need to get this out, pretty much all of my friends are away and I feel like bashing my head into the nearest wall repeatedly for the past few days.
And my eyes started getting very bad out of nowhere too. Stress? I don't know but they're always tired and start going out of focus all out of nowhere. I've been to an optician two weeks ago and she said I don't need glasses, I just should take care of my eyes more and let them rest a bit.

Now, check these artists out and give them some love, we all need some


and give a special look at 's and gallery

Now I'll go and kill my eyes with a book, because it's better than intoxication with whatever we still have in our kitchen cabinet.
(see, good mood showing already!!)



IF YOU HAVE READ THIS MUCH YOU PROBABLY CARE AND POSSIBLY LIKE MY ART, SO WOULD YOU BE INTERESTED IF I DID COMMISSIONS???

Also, contest winners, please don't be mad at me procrastinating with prizes and things, I'll get to it, I swear!!!!

By the way, did you click on the funky looking t-shirt besides the dA logo the second you saw it too??